It just started with a word
A day turned upside-down
With no reason to follow…
Where was up?
Where was down?
Just turn round and round?
I can only look on
Watch as they rain curses upon me
Seeth within with my own hatred for my weakness
And cry for the bitterness that came
I can’t ask for my own
Complain about the discomfort I felt
I just have to endure it all
Wait for them to finish and leave me alone
I’m just here, waiting for a change
A friend to hold me in an embrace
I was alone
I don’t have anyone else.
Still, I could only have enough
A day passed to witness me somewhere else
A place where darkness thrived
A place where no one else could be
A place I could deem safe enough to stay for now
I could hold myself tight, and let what else I held inside out;
Free myself from the bindings of this forced despair
And just watch as the night turned to day.
I could listen to the silence sing its own song
and feel the touch of this lightless night on my skin.
I have been what I know was ‘me’ in this place once,
In the embrace of the darkness they all feared.